Things happen for a reason. If it’s meant to be, it’s meant
to be. It happened because God has a plan for you and your future. Hard times
comes learning. These are just a few of the things that you would likely hear
from the people around you when something life changing happens to you. When
unexpected, good events come into your life, all those sentences are easy to
understand and accept, but when it’s the other way around, those words mean
nothing. It can never console you. There is no one to talk to and no place to
go to that would be enough to make you understand why a bad thing that would
change your life had to happen.
There is only you and that dreadful event.
How can you accept any reason if you have to lose someone
you love? How can you see beyond the truth if you know your life is altered
forever in just a matter of time? These things are real and it happens to a lot
of person around you, if not to you. Now, the question is what do you do when
it does?
I am currently going through the biggest bump that I have
ever encountered in my life. My favorite nephew died last March. I love him
so much that when he died at the age of 11 years old, I was distraught, shocked
and confused at the same time. I cannot seem to understand what was going on
until days after his burial. I cannot see everything that’s going on around me.
I cannot understand my reaction on every event that happened after his death.
No one can console me. No one can pull me out of the pit that I was in. I
cannot see anything that can make me happy even for a little while. I was sad,
then frustrated, then angry, then miserable and then numb. And then suddenly it
hit me; I can never see him ever again.
My only salvation for the time being is God and my kids. I
see my kids as someone who still need me. They need their mother sane and
functioning. It’s the only thing that makes me not want to die or go crazy. I
cling to God because He is the only one who can truly understand what’s been
going on in my mind and body these past few months. I believed that heaven is what
we will expect when we die and that is where my nephew is. I believed he is now
as happy as he deserved to be even if it means that he can’t be with us
anymore. The only thing that may convince me to be at least be in peace with
the fact that my nephew cannot be with us physically anymore is the thought
that God will allow him to look down on us from above to see that he is not
forgotten and still loved by many.
I will not post a recipe today but a prayer instead for
those little angels that are truly missed by their families they left behind.
Dear God,
Please tell our angel to be happy because what they left us
is the ability to love someone forever. We may be lonely and grieving but
that’s only because they are truly missed. Please tell our angel that we love
him so much and we miss him so dearly. We may not be able to accept that he is
truly gone just yet, but we are still looking forward to a happy life later on.
In time, I know we can accept his absence but we will never forget him. God, we
know you are taking good care of him, but still forgive us for asking this,
please let him feel Your love and please let him feel our everlasting love. I
ask this through Christ our Lord.
Amen.
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